Bodylicious ;)

hey

i jus feel like penning dwn smthng... its been a while and i missed my blog....  today as i ws going on with my work in the hospital ... saw a few patients who got me thinking... its not unusual to c people who r so dependent... so despondent.. u almst choke seeing them.. but then its ur job n u really cant get emotional..... 

i remember the day i decided to get into medical profession...i thought to my self our body is such a miracle.. its the ultimate piece of machinery.. the co ordination is amazing.. its perfect... the timing the rhythm we as humans don even knw wat we r carrying within us..... its the ultimate design of a genuis ... the creator n his creation.. 

how did it happen have u ever wondered? could a few reactions in the primordial soup of life have led to such a masterpiece... i don think so... it the work of a brilliant force... 

n then there r people who take it so for granted... u knw our looks r smthng we r born with... its the genes.... if we r healthy it a BLESSING which we rarely realise.... but most importantly wats in our hands is to take care of our health..the body which we so abuse all the time... don take it for granted.. usually we wake up only after its too late... when youth has breezed past us n the twilight yrs are approaching ... its too late then...

we need to respecct ourselves... our body .. the soul within before we expect the world to repecct us... as they say love urself before others love u !

 jus stop for a minute n thank ur body for being so perfect... for carrying u thru, al these years ... with hardly any servicing....  feel being ALIVE! we r blessed :)

and take care of the miracle tat u r !!!!!

M feeling crappy today...... i jus feel m wasting my life doing wat i am.... i knw its not true but how do u handle the pressure... i guess m ok wth handling pressure but wat freaks me out is unreasonable expectations of people....... 

i don like being answerable to anyone... i jus realised... i had only heard its an arian trait din knw it existed in me... i knw wat m doing so i guess hate when someone points a finger...... or questions my intentions.....

hmmm... life is teaching me lessons... oh God... i feel like going for a long drive ...  and leaving al this behind....... sometimes when thngs are all botched up..its so nice to close ur eyes n let ur imagination run wild...... 

like right now when i close my eyes i feel like jus taking off to some hills go for a long walk up a path n reach a monastry where lots of buddhists monks r chanting n big bells or gongs r ringing and there r these thick grey rain filed clouds jus breezing past me... i could jus touch them with my hands :) and jus sit there looking at the monks .... i can almst imagine myself in jeans n sweater n a nice muffler sitting with a smile on large stone steps of a beautiful monastry...  feels beautiful :) i guess life aint tat bad after all.... maybe m jus over reacting..... 

m feeling better already.....  i think the only person who i must live upto is myself and work hard to feel proud ... so when i look back to tell my kids the story of my struggle they can be proud of their mama :) ok nice thought to freeze on