Miracle :) :) ::)

hey :) its bloody 1.40 am and m still up.. i jus cant sleep these days .. love to be up at night... the day stated on a pretty troubled note.... i ws so disturbed.. was scared of losing him... was terrified of the thought that somethng could go wrong .... i had tears rolling down my eyes as i was gettng ready to go to work... for a min i lost the trust in the universe i thought somethng bad conspiring against us... and i prayed.... thats the the only thng tat  saved me actually... i was walking up n down wondering why he hadn called praying tat he would.. jus wantng to hear hs voice telling me relax .. its all gona be fine... don u worry! usually its me who is the optimistic one..... but nt today .. i jus so badly wanted a miracle....

and then i calmed myself... and told myself tat its all gona be fine.. i told myself to trust my instincts... 

the evening breeze brought the warnth and kinda erased the creases on my forehead .... my heart stopped skipping beats.... somewhere the winds were whispering tat all is fine ...  finally i recieved a call frm mom giving me a green signal :) 

so finally my faith n conviction payed off........ 

nw remains the long painful wait to meet him.... the days r numbered but long nonetheless....

but whose complainig.... a longing heart never does ;)

He wants the sky :)

hi there

yes its been a long time and i have missed my blog more than i thought i would... so finally i have arrived in my own terms in the blog world... its an awesome hideout....

so wats new... well somethng is :) and m all thrilled abt it... my heart is singing a tune ... flip flopping :) and making me day dream a lot.....

yeah feels good..but is so fluid ... guess tats wat i love the most abt life... wat all it throws at u and it jus takes u by storm :)

yes sometimes its unnerving in fact nw it is.. but if u ask me why? i cant answer.... and i jus realised and My God! wat a realisation.. tat its nt actually me whos had enough but the world which is making me feel like it.... cos as per this society of ours we have a time n age for marrige, and they make u feel the odd one out if u rnt in the scheme of thngs ... how yucky.... does anybody ask the Moon ever, how old it is and why its not changed with years gone by.... so why us... so i guess m ok with waiting but yes missing a person who would be my soulmate.... or call u whatever u want..but yeah i m longing for company....

hmmm... coming to the point now.... last time he told me he wants the sky.....

ok lemme explain... it was abt finding the right partner.. so i said to him " Go for the moon , u may not quite get it but u wont come down with a handful of dust either..."

and he said no i want the entire sky.. i don mind waiting for the time but i want the entire package ;) he said.. well u knw wat he means m sure.... and i said hmmmm.....( so typical of me.. i "hmm" more than a bee these days !)

and this got me wndering.... if "we" r meant to happen ? its one of the mystries in the universe.. so maddening at times ... but yes no denying i like him.. and i hope my poor heart is ok with the risk m taking.... if it had a choice (my heart!) it sure who would have changed bodies by now :) !

anyws... love is like that as they say!

Have a beautiful Year :)

hi there

so the New Year is finally here... feels awesome :) hope this year is fantastic.. it will be ( keeping my fingers crossed)

life has been tough of late.. painfull yes but miserable no...

lotsa lessons learnt in the last quarter.. like

1) its ok if every body doesn like you... people take jealousy far too seriously than they should.. and to no fault of ours point guns at us.....

Lesson: move on ... its ok to be not liked by all.. ur life wont be any less significant

2) have things straight in your mind n heart , once ur conscience is clear don bother about the world.. we cant yell out our intentions and purpose to the world

Lesson: be a bit of"I Don Care" person :) its really fun

3) things don get better crying abt them... or feeling hurt or miserable...

Lesson: put on ur dancing shoes.. get moving ..swing ur butt and feel the crispness of air... remember in this vast universe u r jus a speck .. so enjoy the booty of UNIVERSE and rest all can be tossed out to Mars ;)

4) its ok to be single.... its actually fun but it does get lonely at times.. its ok go thru all the emotions.. don lie to urself...

Lesson : love may take a while to knock at ur door but it sure wil... someday... so keep hangign baby ;)

5) the last one..... do a lot of introspection and pray to " The Heavens Above"

Lesson: theres a lot to life than catches our eye.... the supreme architect does exist ... let this truth sink in and ur journey would be a lot more smoother :)

P.S: to al who care to visit.... Have a fab year and keep smiling :)))))))

Peace in pieces! :)

i dono wat tittle to give my post maybe i'l figure it out as i go along and spit out the anger the pain the frustration m going thru....

how can people be so hurting ..how can they say shit without thinking twice.... imagine a person (X) had the audacity to comment on my personal life..... and say that m seeing three people at the same time... i could slit X's throat and cut X into pieces and give to the stray Dogs near my house........ Gosh m feeling better already!

what business do people have to comment on other people... Love is misunderstood these days .. its jus an affair and apparently u "Go Around" ! Hello folks don forget its love . ok so sometimes it doesn work out for various reasons and sometimes it does.... what the heck....

but then again to have the freaking guts to say personal things abt someone else.... wat cheek!

now lemme counsel myself cos there isnt anyone else who could do it and i don intend to ruin the rest of my evening thinking this crap.. least of all my holliday!

nobody has the right to judge someone else .. its technically and morally incorrect... and to pass such statements jus shws wat lowly scums they r!

my Guru says if u let people affect u then u are empowering them, so never let that happen... people will talk and talk all crap...

and actually after having studied this whole thing they call Life.. its kiddish to be upset..

they say dance along to the tunes of this world and don care two hoots if the world is seeing and sniggering.... cos they don have anythng better to do.. so shoot the world!

so U Bloody Swine X whether i m seeing 3 or 30 people none of ur bloody business ... and i refuse to let ur small minded worm like thnking affect my anymore ... i write u off from my book of life though..... and TRUST me i m feeling much better.. shedding a few tears did help gettng this load off my chest..

so have i decided the tittle ... hmmm ..... i think i have!

Make Peace!

m back after a long journey which was quite a drainer..... to a distant town in south India where i wouldn have ventured had it nt been required by my accademics.... and wat a journeyit was..... draining me emotionally and physically.......

i wonder sometimes if we take things more seriously than we ought to... do we try to keep everybody happy... do we try to give justifications where people don even care but we stil do cos we don wana cause any ripples in the water.......

it hurts when people misunderstand u.... but then its best to let go cos not every body cares for ur explanationa and when people arent close enough how does it matter what they think.

At the end of the day wat we need to nw i guess is.. as long as we r clear in our conscience it doesn matter wat others think and sometimes we can yel at the top of our voices but no one cares to listen........

so the moral of the story is to make peace with urself.... and leave the world wiht their own mucky thinking ... we cant reprogramme it so jus let it be and not get affected by it!

easier said than done ...... i hope i can stay disconnected too..... thats the only way i can get my peace....

P.S. I Love You :)

hi there

need i say more..... the title says it all. its a fabulous book and aint i glad i din see the flick first........ u bet i m!

hmmm..... the most overrated emotion they say but i don think so its worth every penny of the rate list :) i m jus not able to keep the book down..... considering the amount of work on my plate at the moment it could get dangerous but wat the heck .......

love is like a kite which flies even higher when u chase it but sometimes jus falls in ur lap on a lazy day! the latter hasn happned to me yet though ;) but is it cos i have been chasing it far too long..... maybe its time to gently wait for the breeze to blow it in my direction....... m waititng wind Gods!

life never stops educating us . we may care a damn but if only we care to listen we can read a lot between lines... it isn easy surviving with love lost and Holly sure goes thru her hell.. but learns the lessons of life beautifully ...... her soul mate guides her thru her hell....... and isnt it so true that eventually we all need to make it on a lonesome journey sometime somewhere....... might as well learn the lessons as early on as possible... its tough my dear friend but learn it nonetheless....... haven emptied my heart out fully yet...... lots needs to be said and i shall when the time comes... til then hoping i find love in my heart before i do in ur eyes....

Sorrow!

hi there
things are going crazy as the terrorists strike yet again.. the bloody game of life n death.. what are these men made of.....is it the same blood and sinew that we r ?! i don think so .these r the mutated species of our clan who r out to destroy ....
but what strikes me with a greater intensity is how normal the life is everywhere else........ its like noboy cares .. i stand at a distance from myself to observe with pain in my heart for whats going on... i cant c the vision of gory battle but i can smell the flesh and feel the pain and then i look away where it hasn made a differnce . where people are smiling as if they belong to Mars not earth.....
what r we...... is this the way life is meant to be lived to jus get wallowed in by our own single minded self obseesed existance and not even stop for a moment to feel the agony ....... to pray for the dead and pray for peace......
how can God expect us to go on. and is there somethng we can do stop this ..... if not then this is surely not the right game or the rules need to be rewritten .....
hello i m talking to u who millions turn to in the hour of need ... could u pls make people sensitive again teach them to shed a tear for a neighbour too........