Miracle :) :) ::)

hey :) its bloody 1.40 am and m still up.. i jus cant sleep these days .. love to be up at night... the day stated on a pretty troubled note.... i ws so disturbed.. was scared of losing him... was terrified of the thought that somethng could go wrong .... i had tears rolling down my eyes as i was gettng ready to go to work... for a min i lost the trust in the universe i thought somethng bad conspiring against us... and i prayed.... thats the the only thng tat  saved me actually... i was walking up n down wondering why he hadn called praying tat he would.. jus wantng to hear hs voice telling me relax .. its all gona be fine... don u worry! usually its me who is the optimistic one..... but nt today .. i jus so badly wanted a miracle....

and then i calmed myself... and told myself tat its all gona be fine.. i told myself to trust my instincts... 

the evening breeze brought the warnth and kinda erased the creases on my forehead .... my heart stopped skipping beats.... somewhere the winds were whispering tat all is fine ...  finally i recieved a call frm mom giving me a green signal :) 

so finally my faith n conviction payed off........ 

nw remains the long painful wait to meet him.... the days r numbered but long nonetheless....

but whose complainig.... a longing heart never does ;)

He wants the sky :)

hi there

yes its been a long time and i have missed my blog more than i thought i would... so finally i have arrived in my own terms in the blog world... its an awesome hideout....

so wats new... well somethng is :) and m all thrilled abt it... my heart is singing a tune ... flip flopping :) and making me day dream a lot.....

yeah feels good..but is so fluid ... guess tats wat i love the most abt life... wat all it throws at u and it jus takes u by storm :)

yes sometimes its unnerving in fact nw it is.. but if u ask me why? i cant answer.... and i jus realised and My God! wat a realisation.. tat its nt actually me whos had enough but the world which is making me feel like it.... cos as per this society of ours we have a time n age for marrige, and they make u feel the odd one out if u rnt in the scheme of thngs ... how yucky.... does anybody ask the Moon ever, how old it is and why its not changed with years gone by.... so why us... so i guess m ok with waiting but yes missing a person who would be my soulmate.... or call u whatever u want..but yeah i m longing for company....

hmmm... coming to the point now.... last time he told me he wants the sky.....

ok lemme explain... it was abt finding the right partner.. so i said to him " Go for the moon , u may not quite get it but u wont come down with a handful of dust either..."

and he said no i want the entire sky.. i don mind waiting for the time but i want the entire package ;) he said.. well u knw wat he means m sure.... and i said hmmmm.....( so typical of me.. i "hmm" more than a bee these days !)

and this got me wndering.... if "we" r meant to happen ? its one of the mystries in the universe.. so maddening at times ... but yes no denying i like him.. and i hope my poor heart is ok with the risk m taking.... if it had a choice (my heart!) it sure who would have changed bodies by now :) !

anyws... love is like that as they say!

Have a beautiful Year :)

hi there

so the New Year is finally here... feels awesome :) hope this year is fantastic.. it will be ( keeping my fingers crossed)

life has been tough of late.. painfull yes but miserable no...

lotsa lessons learnt in the last quarter.. like

1) its ok if every body doesn like you... people take jealousy far too seriously than they should.. and to no fault of ours point guns at us.....

Lesson: move on ... its ok to be not liked by all.. ur life wont be any less significant

2) have things straight in your mind n heart , once ur conscience is clear don bother about the world.. we cant yell out our intentions and purpose to the world

Lesson: be a bit of"I Don Care" person :) its really fun

3) things don get better crying abt them... or feeling hurt or miserable...

Lesson: put on ur dancing shoes.. get moving ..swing ur butt and feel the crispness of air... remember in this vast universe u r jus a speck .. so enjoy the booty of UNIVERSE and rest all can be tossed out to Mars ;)

4) its ok to be single.... its actually fun but it does get lonely at times.. its ok go thru all the emotions.. don lie to urself...

Lesson : love may take a while to knock at ur door but it sure wil... someday... so keep hangign baby ;)

5) the last one..... do a lot of introspection and pray to " The Heavens Above"

Lesson: theres a lot to life than catches our eye.... the supreme architect does exist ... let this truth sink in and ur journey would be a lot more smoother :)

P.S: to al who care to visit.... Have a fab year and keep smiling :)))))))