Sunday, April 5, 2009

sunday blues !!

sometimes we dono wat we want in life... even when life is beautiful .things r going great u wonder why r u blue....
tats exactly how i feel right now... i think sundays usualy don go very well with me.... i m ok the entire day but as the day wears off..i jus feel sad.... its like better to not have a day off....  i think staying away from ur family does tat to u.... u miss them so much tat after point u jus go numb the pain stays but the reason which otherwise is so obvious fades away into oblivion....... n jus the feelings remain..... 
at times i feel people have a lot of expectations....  and u jus don ever feel u live to upto them no matter how much u do or hw hard u try..... qustions r asked and at times when there's silence u wonder tat u shud have done it but u haven............
hmmmm.... i knw i don make much sense ..i m jus rattling off some nonsense....... i m jus ................. bored............ 
life presents u with such situations that u wonder if its a blessing or wat? by or wat i mean tat u jus don realise how to deal with things.. its like u r shown the moon on a dark night and u r told its up there somewhere to shower u with light ...don worry even though its a cloudy night ... the moon is still upthere.. jus in case u forgot... for mental satisfaction.... but then wats the use of having it so far away when u really need it closer to show u the light ..... its wat i call "dhoka" and life plays many such games.... it gives u things which r actually nt there .... they r a haze somewhere far away..... and yet u r supposed to kid urself into believing it exists!
its like "nothing i have is truly mine" 
ok i need to snap out of this mood.. but writting abt it alws helps :) its like ur best friend ... tats wat my blog is....... 
m feeling a bit better. need to hit the books nw....... so catch ya

10 comments:

Stillness Speaks said...

You need to take a break girl. Too much work does that to you :-) Do anything and everything that makes you feel good and cling to that happy feeling :-)

We can't always get what we want, but we can always make the best of what we have!

Everything has a time and place. Patience :-)

Take good care of yourself in the coming week :-)

Anand said...

Yep, Sunday sometimes makes ppl feel that way. But that's aright. It's a small, tiny phase that needs to come jus so u can be bright and happy again. Yeahhh..
:-)

Can I help in any way btw???

nups said...

hey Ms stillnes
yup u r right..in fact today morng i wanted to c wat i wrote cos i was overpowered by emotions then.... i really din realsie wat i ws doing :)
it was like i ws drunk or smthng :) anyws Monday went past in a frenzy ... how was urs?

nups said...

hi anand
long time no c...hows u doing.. u r right abt the phase thng... i guess we r so used to being on the run tat when we sit it makes us uneasy.... but tats not good they say... we need to like peace n calm n enjoy the rest..somethng i need to learn :)

Stillness Speaks said...

You're right about the fact that we get so used working round the clock that when we get some time off, it seems that something is amiss. Which is why I think they coined the phrase 'Let's take the time to stop and smell the flowers' :-)

The week whizzes past without a sound and today was just the beginning. I actually love the weekends when I can just be and do precious little :-)

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Jack said...

Nups,

What happened? It is good to let off your steam but this post shows that you have gone under some intense pressure. Remember, do what your conscience says is OK. You need not make efforts to live upto anyone's expectations, set your goals and try to achieve them. Just do not do something to hurt someone wilfully but if in the course of your duty someone is hurt it is what it is supposed to be. You do miss your family if you have to stay away from them but you have to keep the reason for this in mind. Cheer up and keep your chin up. You are doing fine. When is your PG getting over?

You have not given your views on my latest post.

Take care

nups said...

hi jack..
well missed u :) ya i was a bit busy with work so din visit u .. was jus planning to today.thanks buddy for the kind words ..yeah i was a bit stressed tat day.... well my pg is getting over by next april... have exams coming up next in may so kinda stressed...
hows life at ur end

Wanda said...

Some day that "haze" will turn into memories for you...just trust that everything you are suppose to be or have...is there waiting for when the time is right...Make the most of your moments because they add up to a life lived...your memories.

nups said...

thanks Wanda
tat was so intense n touched my heart.... i hope so... sometimes life is jus a long wait.... but i guess its nt abt the destination alws but also the journey.. right!
thanks for stopping by :)