Sunday, June 21, 2009

random amblings.......

God! its been reallllyyyyyy long since i posted smthng... n i knw watever reasons i give would sound like excuses ..cos i have none actually... hmmmm..so lets c how life's been last 20 days that i have been away .... it was great actually.... home was great fun... i kinda ran away frm college to be hme for a long weekend- which was kinda self declared :)
u knw its like i feel at times the urge to live my life on my own terms... m bound by duty n rules n regulations n all that crap...but i knw its my life n this phase will never come back.. i mean to be able to spend time at home.. with no cares in the world..no obligations n all.. cos i guess post wedding there will be people to thnk of n to ask.... i may i may not.. cos i feel my home is my "being" n no one as in NO ONE on earth can tell me if or when or how many days i can go there for..... i wonder hw previous generation of women could take this kind of bondage..male dominated n crafted existence.... hmmmmm..tough !! it still is prevalent in i would say 80% of our country. wat liberation we c is very urban n sad enough hardly a figure worth mentioning ....
again the percent of women who claim to be "liberated" mistook the term with wat could be a warped brain atrophy .... i state it very simply though.... never take shit from anybody.... n i mean nobody on earth.... i guess at times this has lead me to build a shield around me..... its like self preservation... when u have been hurt a zillion times u jus don want anythng to break u again n so u go on this mode... hmmmm....
m super slepy its almost an hr past midnight.... i hate sleeping on saturday nights :) especially when it rains n is all cool n nice outside...
atleast i broke the dead lock on my blog today...hope to make more sense in tomo's post :)

14 comments:

Wanda said...

It was really nice to see your post Nups...It has been a lonnnggg time...One should never be dominated by anyone...always be true to yourself...be the best person you can be and always try to do your best and you will never have regrets.

Stillness Speaks said...

bang on Nups! Since we've all been built equal, you must never take shit from anyone. With life experiences, we do harden, but we mustn't loose the inherent softness which must come through when it must :)

Spend as much time as possible with your parents. It's going to be a long time after which you get to see them post wedding :)

Jack said...

Nups,

It is your right to live with self respect. Post marriage the HOME is what you make of the house you live in. It is Lady of the house who makes HOME. Your visits to parental house can not be denied but these have to be not at the cost of taking care of YOUR HOME.

Take care

darklordreturns said...

Great to see you back! Missed seeing ur posts for quite a while..
I can really relate to what you felt like.. Sometimes, all the obligations and rules with which we are bound, tend to become oppressive.. An we have this overwhelming urge to break free!
Glad you could go home!! :)

Adisha said...

Glad to have u back dearie ... Marriage and every relation, is a partner ship of sorts and should be equal - with doses of respect, care , understanding thrown in , in copious amounts :)

It's good to be careful but not so hard hearted as not to realize the love extended towards you :) Liberated doesnt mean to take liberties but to realize the difference between responsibilities and what you can do for yourself, without opposition.

Before marriage , i strongly recommend you spend time with all those you love and tresure that time but don't think that all will change after marriage. A good wedding is when there's somethign added to your life , not taken away : ) So don't worry, be happy :D

nups said...

hi Wanda
i agree its been a looooongg time... but u knw wat it feels wonderful to c u the first to post a comment as alws :) i knw wat u mean ..be the best n leave the rest .... so lady how have u been.... wats new in life :)

nups said...

hey Stillness
ya u r right... never lose the inherent softness.... u knw i feel that we women r like jelly inside... we may freeze it when we want but all it takes is a warm touch to make us all jello again :)

nups said...

Jack
my dear friend.. ya i knw tat sounds like pearls of wisdom.. but i knw every word of wat u said is true... i knw a home is a hearth a woman makes, if mom falls ill for a day our lives used to be thrown off track.. all mayhem... i would sulk ..dad would look lost ..my elder sis would be snappy cos she was incharge :) and my doggy would come to me n we both would hug each other n sulk ..waiting for mom to spring back to action :)
its my turn now to be the woman i have alws looked upto... n i knw i will do it... "parental home" sounds funny Jack.... my god!! tats the only home i have knwn so far... ..hahaaaa ...

nups said...

hey dark lord :)
thanks for being kind.. feels nice to knw tat my posts r missed by friends like u n all the sweethearts who r loyal visitors :)
the urge to break free.... hmm.. i feel that way very often.... n trust me i m wild enough to take off whenever i want :) feels exhilarating... how a bird feels when it soars higher n higher n then takes the dive again :)beautiful na.....

nups said...

hi Adi :)
yo babes...liberated could be so mistaken .... tats y i mentioned its not wat girls today think with their warped brains... liberated means to accept u won be any lesser by at times giving in... wanting less n giving more... n at the same time not being tramled over by anyone.... i don like when they say "don take me for granted" who else if not the person u love can take u for granted yaar.... its ok let them take u for granted but never let them disrespect u.....

Jack said...

Nups,

That is YOUR Home till you get married and set up YOUR OWN HOME and then it becomes PARENTAL HOME.

Take care

Baljinder Singh said...

hi...just stuck at ur blog somehow...
but its really nice..
well...u r right that world is still male-dominated but there are a lot of girls who have left out dis bull-shit concept far behind n made their life successful n lived life as they always wanted to.

So best of luck 4 that..:P

nups said...

hey Baljinder
thanks for stopping by.... well u knw there's a lot of bull shit women face in our country.... i jus m againt that... m no feminist.. m jus humane i don believe in Indian concept of marriage thats all.... but u knw shit happens every where on earth... we shud deal more at soul level not at gender level.......

nups said...

hi Jack
got the point Sir!! :)