Wednesday, July 8, 2009

m back!!

hi there
Gosh i have been absconding frm the blog world for quite sometime now.... wat a shame...n i hate giving excuses .... well i guess priorities shifted cos of some special events :) so i shouldn be complaining....
anyws ...it feels great to be able to cme home to my blog... "The Space" so lets begin the conversation with thy self!! :)
today a pregnant patient came to the dept. a petite thing already a mother of one pregnant the second time.... she had a massive facial swelling... lil did she knw wat grave trouble she was in... poor lady... at times i wonder why life gives us wat it does.... coming back to the dept scene... all humdrum surrounding her... people rush to take radiographs... another wants to pocket the case... n i too for a wild moment think like that... how stupid of me.... i wonder at times how barbaric n crude we get in dealing with patients... it is addressed as a "good case" n we go on to whose doing it... then again for our selfish reason we hold on to it till the desired period of time...
i pinch myself.. n step back... i look at her n thnk abt her life... her pain n a zillion things abt her... n i feel good... cos i din think selfish... we operate at 2 planes.. we can act selfish n we can think selfish.... more often than not we think selfish.... n i hate it when i catch myself thinking tat way.... ofcourse the patient's interest is wat we work for ..but somewhere we cross the fine line of humaneness .... i may get a degree..but i still need to evolve to a better plane... where i can neither think or work selfish but in fact work selflessly... its v tough cos we work in a pond with crocodiles all around us... conspiring ...conceiting... its tough to nt get affected.. but that's the challenge all about... to keep ur head above when all about u r loosing theirs.... its not big degrees which make big doctors..its small gestures n thoughts which make us worthy of being called one....

8 comments:

Stillness Speaks said...

The very fact that you realize that, will ensure your getting there.

Welcome back :)

Wanda said...

With your compassion, I'm sure life will be good to you Nups...people do get caught up in the routine of life and falter from their course sometimes...no one is perfect...but we can do our best.

Jack said...

Nups,

I was wondering where did you go off to. Welcome back. It is really very good of you to think in this manner. I am sure you will not only prove to be good doctor but a kind hearted one too.

Take care

nups said...

hey Stillness
how have u been dear.... m gona visit u soon ..been so long....

nups said...

hi Wanda
yeah u r totally right...there r things we can do... n we must not let pettiness get to us.... v tough though....

nups said...

Hi Jack :)
so dear how have u been... thanks for the kind words... will visit u soon in the weekend ahead....

Adisha said...

Missed you here gurl !! :) Today, you've raised yourself a notch with this blog. To realize the need to evolve, being a better person and Not going with the flow is an amazing quality ... and to be able to stop yourself and care about Other's thoughts is incredible... Hats off to you babes ... you are truly special

nups said...

hey Adi
thanks yaar !! feels good to be apreciated... but u knw m not as good as u thnk....i set high standards for my self to evolve to a better person n i hope i can live upto it...its tough u knw.... to be in crowd n not be wallowed in by the herd mentality.... its said that we have the potential to be a lot more than wat we r.... i really wana c tat for myself :)