Prayers

hey

life at times can be such a bitch! u wonder wat is in ur hands and wat isnt..... at times we can boast of having things in our control.... but most of the times life takes u by surprise n shock...... 

when u c a person in front of u wither away... u cant do anythng for him.... al ur prayers sometimes u feel are jus geting blown away with the wind..... 

do prayers get answered... do the heavens care to listen n respond.....they say a sincere wish is alws granted... don we make sincere wishes .... i need a miracle right nw.... would the heavens oblige .... at times u really wonder if theres a style or way to pray.. when the desperation strikes and u jus dono who to pray to and how to ask.... is there a protocol Mr God??

today when i was praying for Granpa i  felt so small... i felt like a helpless child who is so dependent on his parents for everythng...... no matter hw old we become we r alws smaller than the forces above... the creator and his creation.........

and the only thng tat came instinctively to my silly brain was a bargain.... i said to God ok why don u jus take sometime off my quota of years and transfer the balance to his... and i looked up with tearful eyes wondering to myself tat why din i think of tat before..... it was a good deal if only the Almighty is ready for it......nothng kills u more than seeig the people u love; worry ,suffer and frown...... 

the only thnig i can do is to keep praying.... sometimes u wonder if god is nt listening cos u r not the best of human being.... is he partial.... or are his laws so strict that he jus wont mend his rules for you??????

i so hope its not like tat

Builders or wreckers!

I watched them tearing a building down

a gang of men in a busy town

with a hoe- he- hoe and a rusty yell

they swung the beam and the side wall fell...

I asked the foremen are these men skilled

he gave a laugh n said no indeed

jus unskilled labour is all I need

I can easily wreck in a day or two 

wat builders have taken a year to do...

and I thought to myself as  i went my way 

which of these roles have i tried to play

am i a builder who works with care 

measuring life with rules and squares...

Am I shaping my deeds to a well made plan

patiently doing the best i can

or am i a wrecker who walk the town 

content with the labour of tearing down???

P.S : i remembered this beautiful recitation frm school... don remember the author but it sure makes a lot more sense several years after passing out :)

are u smiling !!!!! :)

hey 

so feb is almst done with..... we have approx 6 days left... i jus want the days to fly ... sometimes a day is more than 24 hrs its about 60x60x24 seconds .. i think tats the calculation.. correct me if i m wrong..... and for me  a day is about those many seconds right nw ....... 

we dono wat the next minute has in mind.... life can be beautiful or it can be a bitch :) so i guess its all abt this moment... and this moment feels beautiful....  

so as they say lets seize the moment while we can .... life has no gaurantees no warranties.... its jus abt a breath at a time.... 

have u  ever felt guilty of being happy .... cos when u smile theres alws someone at the corner of ur eye whos nt so happy .. a kid on the street begging .... a blind man crossing the road n fumbling as he walks along..... a couple squabbling..... and u wonder wat r u so happy abt...  and the smile frm ur lips does a vanishing act..... does it??

guess this is life but they say the ultimat reality of life is to be happy n be at peace .. to be of use in this world... so fellas lets bring a smile to a frowning face .... lets wipe a trickling tear.. nthng in life is more satisfying than a hug frm someone in ur darkest hrs.....  

i guess the hug camapaign did make sense after all ;) 

so make a day.... make someone smile :)

u make me wana be a better person!

so .... r u guys all over the V day hang over ? :) guess for most of us it wasn as big a deal as it is for the gen X ... but yes its jus too hard to nt get swooned away by the aura of the day....
at school many times we guys used to have this conversation abt wat love is all about ..... and one of my friend's said .. "its jus a feeling between the legs" .... i snapped at him and was horrified hw guys could thnk.... though it no longer surprises me ;)
hmmm.... so the question stil remains unanswered... wat the hell is love all about... the romance doesn last forever ..so its nt a fairy tale... but yes theres somethng abt love tat makes u wana be a better person.... u knw its ths innate desire to make it easy for the person u love... u jus want peace n happiness and the last thng would be to destroy it urself..
so all in all love is more abt actions.. than words......
its a feeling tat makes u wana pray more ....... and guess tats a very powerful feeling :)
i jus discovere this..... and it all feels so damn right ... so maybe the question is beggining to get answered :)

love!

dust in the wind........

sometimes when i look back..... i wonder has life past me by... or is it jus that life is like tat.... as we walk on the path at times we wonder if this is wat we created or it a part of a pre ordained life plan.... 

the more u ponder the more lost u r.... so many times the intentions have been good ..the endings nt quite the same... at times u fell the whole has jus stopped for u and the rest r going on in their act... called Life! its scary.... like a terrified puppy who has no where to hide.. stuck in the chaotic streets wher nobody would thnk twice before crushing it alive............ quite gory but at tims it feels like tat.......

so wat is ths all abt ..... its tough ! u bet..... but i guess one cant complain .... cos we don have really anybody to complain to.... thelessons r tough but have to be learnt nevertheless...

wonder if anyone of u have ever noticed tat life hits u where it hurts the most..... its amazingly true and jus when u r so sure of urself .. when the thngs r in ur hands ...they jus slip away ..... then u realise the nonthingness of this existance.... the worthlessnes of wat we call life...

the lines of one of my fav song go like... it called "Dust in the wind"

I close my eyes only for a moment and the moments gone....

All my dreams ..pass before my eyes a curiosity..

Dust in the wind... All we r is dust in the wind.....

Same old song.... jus a drop of water in the endless sea....

all we do, crumbles to the ground though we refuse to c

Dust in the wind.........

Dont hang on .. nothng lasts forever but the earth n sky.....

it slips away all ur money wont another minute buy....

Dust in the wind, All we r is dust in the wind...

Dust in the wind.. all we r is dust in the wind........

Everythng is dust in the wind.......

Beautiful song... sums up our existance... buddy don be too critical of life...

we r here to love n give happiness ... so lets march on n don look back... it only hurts :)

every post neednt have a title :)

hiya...

long time... n i did miss myself in the web world! 

traveling down the memory lane can be so much fun at times.... with all the pains n heart aches and the smiles n cheers :)

i went for my school reunion ... and felt like a kid again... thats one place i haven been able to cut the cords with... i guess there's no need to also..... this amazing sense of belonging..... the time jus goes back to the days of dirty uniform ... snotting faces ... empty lunch boxes.... and romances which were so damn eternal and to die for :)

today my childhood sweetheart called me.. its been ten freaking years and ws his bday today.. as alws i wshed him in my prayers .. was amazed to c his call n when i answered he said "i thought let me get myself wished by you cos u will never call" i was speechless..... after all the guy is married n haven wished him since Ten freaking years......  hmmm...i jus din knw wat to say .. jus wished him good luck :) n all the love life  has to offer...... 

smethngs r better left in the past .. we shouldn bring it on ... its like haunting ghosts....

but m happy i have moved on........  m very happy to be in love with a guy i haven even met..... feels beautifully strange.... dono wat life has in store .... but who cares..m nt gona kid myself into believing otherwise... i love talking to him.... chatting with him ..... i miss him all day n night ... i like his views n thoughts ..n above all i love his eyes (seen only in pics)

 i love him so lets c where life takes me frm here ;)